Por Que Me Esta Matando.

Hace mas o menos como dos meses me habian dicho que segun estaba embarasada entonces yo y mi esposo estabamos muy emocionados por que mi pobre esposo tiene dos hijos pero viven en Utah con su mama. Como dos idiotas emocionados fuimos a una clinica para que por fin me digeran si era un nino o nina y lo que nos dijeron que no estaba embarasada y asi de rapido todo se nos rompio. Primero que todo yo y el estabamos bien emocionados por que el queria un bebe y desde lo que me paso yo tambien queria uno. Desde todo esto ya llore mi paz pero eso no se ignifica que lo he olvidado. Hoy por alguna rason me he sentido muy mo sola pero vasia. No vasia como de hambre pero vasia como si me hiciera falta algo. Yo pense que mi vida iba a cambiar por el bebe pero mi vida a cambiado por que cuando pensamos que estaba embarazada me estomago me estaba cresiendo y pues ahora me dicen que tengo algo en mi uteros y no saben que es. Ojala y despues de algun tiempo puedayo tener hijos por que como esta ahora no se mira como si valla a pasar pero por mientras nomas voy a tener mi mitad de hijo que es este.

Honeymoon/Vacation (... and we wouldn't have it any other way).

Tony has always told me that camping with his family was going to be a blast because they stay there the whole week! so at this time I'm thinking he's crazy if he's expecting me to camp for that long well that came back and bit me in the butt but more on that later. Oh and another good thing, my parents came with my brother, my sister and husband and also my dog.
So after our so anticipated wedding lol we literly ran to Utah to pick up the boys for camping... now with that let me tell you I have never been camping for more than 2 days anyways we got there on Sunday at like 5 or 6 in the morning and had to pick up Parley and Ethan at 7 needless to say Tony didn't get much sleep in fact he over slept. we hung around with the Stigers for a while than we left the next day with Steve who happened to almost kill Grandpa Burgon (and that was not funny at the time).
Finally we made it to South Dakota after hours upon hours of looking at grass in Wyoming and getting way to sunburn on the way. I was so happy to see Par and Spitts just smile looking at Angie and Brian and how they were just so happy to be able to play with Blake and Nana. At that moment all the stress from the past months was completely gone. Here are some of the pictures.















I can honestly say that this vacation/honeymoon was the best anyone can have. I got to see my husband with his kids and that in itself makes me smile. Camping was not so bad for it being me but I would still prefer a hotel room overlooking the beach with room service at the same time my life has change so much in the past year that I wouldn't have it any other way.

To My Husband

You Have made me the most happy girl in the world and i am so happy to be your wife. I love you

Vivi's First Blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so this is my first time actually blogging... tony is the one that got into this so i'll try it this one time and we'll see how it goes from here hehe.
So, last time that we were in here we were on our way back from droping off Parley and Ethan and that was November let's catch up shall we! December was fun this was my first time spending Christmas with someone else other than my own family and it was really fun they always make me laugh (the Ericksons) January i think was uneventfull if i remember about something i shall write it down later. February was fun! We went to Utah for Parleys baptism! He is such a good boy, he is the only 8 year old who can actually use the word "touche" and put it in context. He is so smart and i am constantly amazed at the fact that he already speaks like an older person. I have only known Parley since November and the sucky part is that we only get to see him like 4 weeks outta the year and i know that that kills Tony. You have to remember im a little bit on the retarted side so bare with me on the pictures that i have because they're a little bit old. Anyways... continuing on.... Ethan! This little boy cracks me up! a lot! I love it when he goes next to tony and whispers "i love you daddy" he seriously almost makes me cry when he says that because i cannot imagine how hard it would be to not have them around for Tony. I hate the fact that they're gone. When Tony came back from Utah last year for his camping trip i looked thru all his pictures and one of them was Ethan just waking up and looking at him with his thumb in his mouth and those big blue eyes. One of the things i do every morning is that i turn around to give Tony a kiss good morning well there are days when i can see Ethan. The exact same way just 26 years older that little boy is his fathers shadow.
I love Tony with all my heart and he is the best thing that has happen to me. From the beggining i took him with all his baggage and i didnt think it was gonna be a lot of it but i was totally wrong. Even with that i have never ever consider those two precious little boys baggage. They may not be my kids but they are part of Tony and because of that i love them and Utah just made me more aware of that so everytime they come to Colorado im just thankfull that we get to see them :)
To keep going, ahhhhh oh yeah march nothing, april, hmmmmm.... april is just about over and as far as us, we moved out of our apartment and im missing it because i had more quite than i do now but the fact that we can keep going with our businees and that we are going to get our of debt by the end of this year just kinda help our a lot. I dont know how May will go but i will let you guys know. XOXO

The Drive Home

Dropping off the boys was an adventure in its self. 12 hours of driving this is where we got to sleep fot the night in Silverthorn
We got a lucky break. All in all we spent 17 hours in the car. it was a trip that we will not soon forget.

The Kids come to town

The boys came to town for thanksgiving. it was so nice to see them again
Besides playing with the boys we also wen to "Monkey Business" for Bentlys birthay.
The boys got to spend lots good time with their cusions and sleep over with friends.
They got to meet the dog and Vivi. it was a good time. They all got along well and it was hard to let them go.
its fun being a dad, it's hard to be one from 500 miles away, we're doing the best we can with what we got.

the dog

so we got a dog!
lol tony got a dog
Vivi had a dog but i was allergic so we had to let her parents keep him. that works cuz her little brother needs a dog. We named him "pig".